Barely, only barely

2012-02-07T00:36:00.000+08:00

How long will i take,
till the day I can see Your face?
As long as it shall be,
I will never stop seeking.

2012-02-02T00:09:00.002+08:00

Tell me
Tell me how you don’t care,
how you can ignore this,
how you can disregard your feelings
to go against something that has been breathing just for you.
Tell me how you can hate on something so precious, so dear.
Tell, shout, ” I don’t like you “.
Then, pretend none of those happy days ever happen.

2012-01-13T00:05:00.000+08:00

Have seen and read things and I see how horrible this world can get.
i never want to live like that anymore, i don't want to judge anyone on anything and accept them they way they are.
For the simple reason that they are accepting me as the horrible person i always have been.
No one is without sins, and God accepted us as His child which is very much what your whole life is worth.
Nothing less than someone He treasures.
Why do i always forget this?
Nevermind those who are looking at me weirdly, because Jesus went through this too.
waywardness... be gone.

2011-12-27T00:03:00.000+08:00

I can't write and speak big fancy words,
but I love You God and I will do Your commandments and maybe realizing Your will.

Maybe not now, but later on in life, I wish to deepen in the understanding of Your words, and grow in both knowledge and wisdom of You.
I just want to follow you though I don't have a firm foundation,
I fear You, for You are my God.
I love You, because You loved me first
I trust in You, for You are My Father
I have faith in You, cause You are all that I can and have.

2011-11-19T01:03:00.000+08:00

i've been sick as hell for a week now.
I am itching to study and write notes.
I just need to get my voice back.
So i was saying, being knocked out of my usual routine for a week is really horrible.
is like really being cut off from your own world.
you have no clue what to do, whats happening.
Even tho you have friends trying to explain things to you, really all you heard it just a high pitch screech.
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Time waits for no one, no wind stays at one spot.
I felt how lost i was this week.
not only did i feel lost about my physically health, i had no idea why i was like this, i also felt lost in my school work and cca.
I missed out, everything.
But i still thank God for i wasnt feeling unwell during the exam week.
Thank you God (:

2011-11-14T00:42:00.000+08:00

It has been long, so, HI GUYS.
As i reflected on my spiritual walk today with My Lord, I see how far i have distant away from Him this year.
I havent been reading His words, I fail to abide His commandments, I fail to be a reflection of who God is.
I look at these failures and count them as a way He is perfecting me. I may not have learnt much this year, but i seek to sense His presence, His wrath and undoubtedly, His Love.
As I seek to grow in my faith next year, I want to have a closer relationship with Him and i seek to reach out to my friends even more.
Throwing away all my doubts and uncertainty, i trust in what My Lord wants and willed me to do.

2011-10-10T22:50:00.001+08:00

why am i not treated as someone's bestie?
what about me that people hate, i really want to know

2011-09-30T02:35:00.000+08:00

care for me like how you will care for a plant.
symptoms of it dying and choking- leaves dropping, turning yellow.
I need care and concern, really sitting down and asking whats wrong with me.
URGH THIS IS SO HARD.

2011-09-29T00:03:00.001+08:00

okay, i am ready to say what really is going on now.
I am feeling very insecure about how i look and I am throwing out all my values about being happy and healthy.
I don't know who i can actually talk to about all this shit because all the people i go to are just saying
"you are not fat corin. "
you can try being me for a day and you will understand how i feel, being unable to get into all the clothes that you love to wear.
Why do you think i have to resort to wearing long sleeves all the time in a such a hot country like singapore.
I hate long sleeves, i love wearing tanktop. but because of these arms, I don't really think anyone would enjoy seeing a fat arm.

and those who think why i am always have a dilemma with choosing whether to eat or not, think again before saying " just eat" because i take weeks to cut down that little weight. maybe i should just shutup and not say anything about eating next time. i am so weak in the mind i'll just give in to anyone motivating me to eat.

and because of that, my confidence level drops everytime someone teases me, whether they seriously meant it , or say it jokingly.

It is so tough and hate it. i wish i could explain to my friends how i feel. but they will never get it. they will just keep chanting " you are not fat corin, you are not". and i am sick and tired of hearing it. so tired.

2011-09-28T00:37:00.000+08:00

Do you think invisibility is a good super power?
well, what if you can only choose to stay invisible your whole life, or to forgo that power?
I think i just need attention, for people to show that they actually care for you.
urgh, I am so superficial. I can't write this anymore.

2011-09-24T00:33:00.001+08:00

This is what i really wanted to say that day.
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I am sorry we didnt called you for trainings. I feel horrible inside beause i was the one who went to you.
I have no excuse for that. I am sorry that i have been such an irresponsible person.
when you ask how we did, it was more of asking for forgiveness than wanting you to be proud of us. I happen to chance across how you really felt. I don't know what to say, but only to apologize.
If there is one thing that we can do, that is to stay out of your sight, not reminding you that we were once under your guidance.
I really wanted to befriend you, but it is so tough now.
죄송합니다.

2011-08-18T20:31:00.004+08:00

Things can change.

2011-08-13T23:54:00.001+08:00

你们好
今天的我，兴致来昂，想用华语来记载今天所有的感受。但是我太久没有用华语和大家沟通，所以如果有任何的错误，请不要见怪。
什么对你来说，是最重要的呢？
感情？金钱？地位？家人？一个你能托付终身的人？
最在意的呢？朋友吧。
对我来说，那的确是我最在意的事。
我可以说我真没有朋友。真的。因为谁能说他们真的了解我？告诉我。
我看只有我自己吧。。。
虽然如此，但我真的真的很想要有一个能了解我的人。

2011-08-12T01:53:00.000+08:00

If you can go into a world w/o haters, only those who truly love and care for you will be there, who will there be? Look around you and think about it. Who are these people. Recognize them and treat them better.
For me, I think God will be there. Only God and Jesus.

2011-08-06T20:28:00.002+08:00

2011-08-06T19:48:00.001+08:00

My night-self is starting to show in the morning now.
It is such a disappointment to see myself behave like this in front of my friends.
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It hasn't been the easiest time, to have all this weight on me.
Literally, weight.
I had once, almost thought of stop eating altogether.
I was about to get to it but someone told me I was beautiful the way I am.
Though she don't know me, haven't seen me before, she knows how I feel.
The struggles to eat. The struggles to not eat.
I am not healthy, Neither am I diagnose with all kinds of problems in my body due to my weight.
But this is the root of all my unhappiness.
The only thing that is stopping me from smiling all the time.
I can't even enjoy my food without thinking of how much weight I'll gain.
None of my friends understand me, cause they are all so tiny.
If not, they already understand the true meaning of being beautiful.
I'm still stuck in my own world.
The thought of not eating, is haunting me more often than before now.
Between the results of losing a few kilos,consequences of destroying my body and staying the way i am, I have to choose one.
I'll think over this carefully.

2011-07-26T01:50:00.000+08:00

I like using laptop at starbucks.
Where you can see everyone, what they do when they have free time.
We were taking a break from the not-so-tiring project work.
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Heart is one special organ
It has two main functions.
First, it keeps us warm and beating
Second, it makes us kind and loving.
If you put them both together,
you'll get one uniquely "me".
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I'm not the most interesting girl,
nor am i the least bit skinny.
what you see darling, is what you are going to get.
I tried, don't say i didnt. I took my chances and i went for it.

2011-07-10T23:00:00.000+08:00

the word happy has been taken too lightly.
so much so that we forgot the goodness of it, or that what it really means.
a few moment to think about what truly makes you happy.
For me, a cup of hot drink at a cafe and a book in hand. That's what makes me happy.

2011-06-28T11:58:00.000+08:00

good personalty, nice smile. every thing looks good, what else would you need more?
A good friend.

2011-06-16T00:29:00.000+08:00

Thinking if I was louder and more drama, I will feel less lonely in school.
But no, everywhere I go, no matter what I do, no one likes me.
Probably yes, when they first know me. But, yeah, that's it.
What did I do wrong? Where did I go wrong?
Someone tell me.

2011-06-12T16:35:00.001+08:00

Your crush lending you his ipod,

Your boyfriend drys your hair for you.

I WANT THESE. HEHE <3

1st holiday in SP.

2011-06-05T02:08:00.000+08:00

Jiamin-ah, saengil chukhahaeyo! <3
Saranghamnida!

Got to finally meet up with her and some of my other classmates in secondary school.
So, yeah, I am a happy girl now.
some great deals @scape, flea.
X-men was great and i am tired.
Cheers.
PS. I saw, as what xiaxue says "Plasticzilla", real-life.

2011-05-30T17:44:00.000+08:00

PEACE OUT PEEPS. GONNA GET A NEW HAIRCUT SOON

2011-05-12T23:51:00.000+08:00

You said he is your best friend.
Have you ever wondered, what he thinks you are to him?

2011-05-06T01:05:00.001+08:00

The world’s wealth and riches can be bought and sold.
But I possess a treasure far greater than gold;
‘Twas a gift passed down to me from heaven above,
‘Twas the gift of my Father’s love.

And my Father’s love is strong and true,
Always believing, always seeing me through.
So no matter what happens in His grand design,
I’ll be fine with my Father’s love.

Safe and secure now in His love alone,
I find here my place of worth as one of His own.
And I don’t need ev’rything this world wants to give,
‘Cause I live with my Father’s love.

And my Father’s love is strong and true,
Always believing, always seeing me through.
So no matter what happens in His grand design,
I’ll be fine with my Father’s love.

So, no matter what happens in His grand design,
I’ll be fine with my Father’s love,
with my Father’s love.
I have my Father’s love.

2011-05-05T11:50:00.002+08:00

I like you Sohn Dong Woon. Not going to call you oppa because I dont know you. Respect.

2011-04-25T22:26:00.002+08:00

all is not over yet.

2011-04-19T22:06:00.000+08:00

DON'T JUDGE ME. YAY. COME TALK TO ME AND I'LL TELL YOU EVERYTHING YOU WANT TO KNOW BUT PLEASE DON'T JUDGE. It is rude WINKS ^^

2011-04-16T01:27:00.002+08:00

Knowingly. Still friends~

I don't want to change.

2011-04-13T00:12:00.000+08:00

When I look back a few months from now, I think I will definitely feel a tinge of sadness.
I don't want anything to change. I want my friends to be here, I don't want to meet new people cause they wouldn't be anywhere near the friends I have now. When my Poly friends reads this, I know how sad they'll be, but at the same time, they will feel what I feel too. I am sure. Everytime I think about it, I feel childish. It seems like everyone will just fade away and I will be at the same spot, waiting for them like a lost child in the mall.
A bunch where they will no longer judge, because they just know you too well. I miss you guys. I feel so lonely now.
These are heartfelt words. I am tearing in my heart.

If we ever meet again.

2011-04-04T20:54:00.002+08:00

If I stay the same, will we meet each other in school?
Please say yes, I just want to be friends.

2011-03-31T23:49:00.000+08:00

One doesn't wait for the feelings to fill, but to chase that feeling, and embrace it.
Following what was planned for us, it is easy yet challenging.
At least I was part of the plan, so why not follow ?
I might not be the best of them all, I am still one who has a heart to serve.
Blessed by the Holy Spirit, I can do much more I ever imagined.
It is just that, I never bother.

2011-03-22T00:23:00.001+08:00

I want to be able to talk about my faith,
but i realize, I haven't done anything for Him.
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Reviewing the lessons I've heard at YC2010.
that our love for Him is interlinked with our Faith in Him.
that if we dont have this love, we wouldnt be able to commit to serving Him or even do anything for Him.
Reviewing this few months of holiday, I feel that it went past like a wind.
Blur.
I dont even remember doing anything for Him ministry.
I panicked. Am I sure that I was saved?
I read on. "Some response is better than none" mentioning that some people are liken as stones.
I know that it is in a different context, but my heart feels a little lighter than before.
Then I came to the part where it says,
"our sins make us unable to confirm our love for God and Jesus" and i'm now very confused.
It is true, I can't confirm if I even have that little love for Him.
But if He appears now and if I love Him, I know I am definitely going to cry and say yes.
But what if that love comes from guilt? that is something I have to think about.

2011-03-21T00:36:00.000+08:00

Easter is arriving in a month's time.
I can't even explain how excited I am.
Knowing the significance of Easter all over again.
What is lacking in me is confidence. Good vocals & knowing music does not run in our family.
Till today, I don't even know if I am on the right note.
Will it suffice if I have the heart to actually want to do my best?
After looking at the whole play today, I feel that it is so wonderful. Its is actually beyond words that He suffered all that for someone who fail Him again and again. He had faith in us, He bought us freedom, that we may not get caught in the world. I cannot even bear to think how hurt He is every single time I fail Him.

I anme you.

2011-03-16T01:17:00.001+08:00

How will I get through another saturday when it isnt the same anymore?

I can never look at you in the way I used to.

Please go away.
PS. Happy Birthday Waimei * Winks *

2011-02-19T22:50:00.000+08:00

Your hot girlfriend/boyfriend talking to some hot girls/guys, but sees you alone at a corner.
He/she leaves conversation and come over to you.

2011-02-02T00:45:00.000+08:00

someone save me from all the devils on earth.
Self-centered devils,
Lying devils,
Power-obsessed devils,
Devils who judge,
Oh Lord, why are they still here?
Help me to love them even if they are devils.
I want to change them all to angels.

I always envy Taylor Swift. She always gets a happy ending doesn't she?

2011-01-18T02:34:00.000+08:00

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My name is Kate. I'm going to be 16 this year. Still stuck in high school but I'm glad I have my gang of besties. I love reading, especially books relating to teenagers like me. I always imagined how my life would turn out like the girls in all the books, ending up in Ivy League; in Yale or Princeton. My life consist of no drama at all. Problems might be the right word actually. You see, I'm a straight A's student, teachers like me, good around my classmates, happy family and all. Problem is, life has been good, too good that I didn't even notice that 16 years of my life have past. However, I do have one problem. You know how girls always have fights and quarrels over some homecoming prince or some hottie in the football team, well, that's my problem. I don't have That guy. In fact, none of my friends have a guy giving them problems, because, we are in a all girl school, which totally sucked, now that I think of it.
My problem? I need a guy in my life. You know what? It actually happened.
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2011-01-03T11:52:00.001+08:00

Just something about Bethany:
It always makes you feel at home, being the way you want yourself to be.
It just makes you want to stay there.
I just hope Bethany stay as it is now. That will be my prayer this year.
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I just thought of one goal for this year. Be more confident, not be so timid.
I'll strive hard towards that.

2010-12-30T12:02:00.000+08:00

HI GUISEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

Life is currently manageable, but you all might want to think about what kind of resolutionyou want for 2011.

I thought of a really witty one, but I kindof forgot so if I ever remember it, I'll tell you all! ((:

Happy New Year's Eve's eve!

I'm going to meet all my best girls! BYEEEEEEEEE!!!!!

2010-12-17T10:14:00.006+08:00

No one prolly wants to hear anything depressing right now.
I dont even want to think about them. I wish I could shut the voice in my head.
Well, I had a good time with my friends yesterday. All I can say, it has been long since I have done this.
Done some Christmas shopping. The joy of giving. What more than seeing happy faces everyday. I wish that happens in my job.

2010-11-29T00:23:00.000+08:00

Been very very VERY long since I took a second look at a guy and think he is going to approach me for something. Anything.
BUT, too bad, this random guy I saw, IS MY FRIEND's FRIEND.
So................. Goodbye~ (:

2010-11-26T18:00:00.001+08:00

sinking deeper in. deeper than anyone can ever ever ever imagine.

2010-11-26T17:39:00.000+08:00

类：每一秒都有一个故事结束，也有一个故事开始。杉菜，跟我回日本吧。
杉菜： *looks away*
类：你懂我的意思吗？
杉菜： * looks away more *
Me at home : HELL YA I KNOW WHAT YOU MEAN. BE WITH ME INSTEAD.

Yeah, just joking. This show was like 6,7 years back. I've watched all versions of hana yori dango. This is the only version I want her to be with Rui. OHWELL, things dont go the way we want right.

2010-11-25T21:42:00.000+08:00

One day, I wouldnt have to listen to anyone.
I will run, run, run.. to anywhere possible.

2010-11-22T23:54:00.004+08:00

Just a person that is quiet and able to protect me.
Like... you, who haven't appear in my life.
-
Let's go on a road trip to the field on the end of the country.
We are going to have ginger bear, salad for lunch and cafe music in the background.
The sky will have rays of sun streaming down from the patches of cloud.
There will just be gentle wind, just sweeping our hair from our faces, just so that we can see each other clearly.
We ain't going to talk, but just enjoying each others' presence.
Then you slowly fall asleep on my shoulders, looking as peaceful as the calmest sea, as peaceful as the colour white.
And again, this remind me of why I've fallen in love with you in the first place.
It was your imperfectness.
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I have failed once and to really say the truth, really, Im afraid of doing it all wrong again.
/ I may say, " OHHHHHHHH DAYUMMMMM THAT GUY IS HOT. I SO AM IN LOVE WITH HIM ". Its actually just a passing remark. I dont go round falling in love with guys randomly, to me its just plain stupid. ( that was me last time )I have to rethink twice or even question myself of what actually Im thinking. Ohwell, Im just going to drown in other people's love story and be amazed.
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Work is really going well now, by God's Grace once again.
I really love how praying can make such a great difference, I love You God.

2010-11-20T09:29:00.001+08:00

I should have lied and said everything was fine.
Dad talking to me makes me even more stressed up and don't even know what to do now. I hate it. I guess I'm jut going to Become a selfish person and I should shut up and not talk to anyone during these few months. Guess what, I dont even want to carry on in this job for another month or whatsoever. If this is "life", then I guess I've nothing to say. I wish I could curse and swear at people that really deserve it. Now dad say he is not going to tell me any more advice, so it means he will be ignoring me again. If he ask me hows work, I prolly say that I have done all that he has taught me and I manage to get easier work.
But I know that will never happen. Going to prepare myself for another day of hell, so I will be back later, if I survive. Hope you guys don't have to ever go through what shit I'm going through and I'm praying that you guys will get nice leaders .
xxxxxx
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Sometimes I just talk, smile and laugh too much. Maybe I should become a gloomy and grumpy person. Maybe then "life" will be easier. Awww, maybe not. Know why, CAUSE THERE
ARE JUST SOME FREAKING SICKOS LIKE MY LEADER(OHMAN I DON'T EVEN WANT TO CALL HER MY LEADER, just out of respect.) WAITING FOR ME TO BREAK DOWN. OH NEVER IN MY LIFE WILL I LET THAT HAPPEN AGAIN. JUST YOU WAIT AND SEE. WAIT FOR MY GOOD NEWS PEOPLE, SHE IS GOING DOWN.

2010-11-20T00:00:00.000+08:00

First day of job was pretty easy. TODAY WAS HELL/
Nothing is fair, I know. I can only blame it on my luck to get such a leader.
She even say that Im stupid. ( TT )
FYI, I only get paid 5$ per hour, we cant really drink water until our break time, cant visit the toilet.
Know why, cause my leader is way too scary. My other friends apparently got like better ones, way better and they were sooooooooooooooo nice. With the exception of mine. I feel like she will haunt me in my sleep tonight.
Im not even kidding.
My 5$ is earned with soooooooooo much difficulty than the others.
But because of this, I find that He really brings me through the day and through all the problems I've been facing.
Another "evidence" that He is really Great and Almighty.
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To people, you see it before you believe it.
To me and whoever, we believe and then, we will see.

2010-11-19T00:30:00.000+08:00

Work started and from what I can see today, I dont even think I can watch HP7 tomorrow or anytime this week. Maybe on sunday but I doubt I can make it other days. You dont even know how much I wanna watch. Its like a see or die for me. Kay, might not be till that extend but, whatever.
Work was great, but hell tiring. Friends were made and Im hell happy with all of them.
Now I seriously need to crash.

2010-11-17T10:51:00.002+08:00

I went home cause I feel that mom didn't search carefully enough. Cause I thought she just want me home cause she thought downtown east was dangerous. I hate myself. Is just a freaking chalet but I hate myself.

2010-11-17T10:47:00.002+08:00

I hate how everyone is having fun but I'm the only one sulking at home. I want to go there so badly. Why is the chalet at pasir ris. I wanna ask dad to fetch me but he looks so freaking annoyed. Wthhhhhhhhhh. I wanna bang the wall.

2010-11-14T22:12:00.000+08:00

The rest will be on facebook (:
I was super tired yesterday and slept around 10 plus. Yes it was that tiring~
Ohyeah, I got a job at serangoon and I'm starting work on 18th, so please please, consider shopping at the new mall yeah ^^
Chilled at clarke quay with minling and christina! Wind-in-hair feeling~ Get it? ^^
Meet with Minji and Weisi, DAYUMM THEY ARE HOT. Literally.
Then with Sam, Claire and Jingwen (:
Minling, Christina and I didnt know there was A HUGE BURGERKING in clarke quay with all he pubs~
For juniors looking for a place to study, GO THERE.
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SHOPPING SPREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE TOMORROW. With dad. TT

2010-11-13T07:24:00.001+08:00

Im going back to bed.

You might be at the top of fashion, but I don't want to be you because I like me. Too bad those clothes you wear can't hide what is coming out from the inside.

2010-11-13T06:47:00.002+08:00

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2010-11-13T06:39:00.001+08:00

I only had 1 hour worth of sleep.
It was horrible.
Do you have a nightmare that you'll keep dreaming of?
Something like Harry Potter's, but mine, it keeps changing.
I never got to the ending of the dream cause I force myself to wake up.
Today, I tried very hard, but I just couldnt get out of it.
And when I really pushed myself out of it, I woke up gasping for air. Literally.
It was the worse dream ever.
I find myself trying to decode the dream cause I couldnt sleep.
When I close my eyes, I find the people in the dream haunting me again.
I kept praying, but I just couldnt find peace in sleeping. I didnt trust myself. Or maybe I didnt pray, thinking that He is really going to help me find peace.
One of it, but i think is the latter. I just dont have the guts to go back to sleep anymore.
Its hell. I feel like Satan is like trying to drag me to him, but because of God's grace, I wasn't.
I know its just a dream and you will be thinking like, WHY IS SHE SO CHILDISH.
HELL NO, it's really horrible.
I'm not even going to say try it for yourself cause it's really scary.
I'm having an interview in like a few hours time and I really feel terrible.
The sky brightened up. Its a dark shade of pale blue right now.
Finish munching my breakfast.
I'll try to get pictures .
Sometimes, I feel like typing for the air to read my entry.

2010-11-13T00:40:00.000+08:00

I dont speak fashion. I know nothing about it. But I like clothes. My style. If you get what I mean.

2010-11-12T23:36:00.002+08:00

Im going to start to diet. Like now.

2010-11-12T23:11:00.000+08:00

HEY, so im back people.
Today is officially the last day of Olevels.
*Claps Claps*
Something really horrid happen today.
I didnt wake up in time to revise anything and there happen to be a lot of questions that I should have known if I revised.
But i didnt manage to.
I cant blame it on anyone, not even the alarm cause it was suppose to be REALLY LOUD.
I guess I was dead to the world then.
Whatever that happens, Im going to leave it in His hands. If that is the plan for me, I shall gladly accept it (:
I have tumblr in case you guys didnt know.
Its really addictive.
Im talking rubbish right now.
So, a group of us went out today.
Had a nice talk with Minling ^^
Chilled at starbucks, we even planned for chalet's food and drinks.
Its gooooooooooooooooood!
Really hope to get a job at wherever I can. Seriously, Im kind of panicking cause everyone else seems to have a job already!
DIES *.*
OHWELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLS.
XXXX

2010-11-11T21:06:00.000+08:00

GUISE. IM BACK.
and gone. Dont stalk me.
Will be back in 10 hours time, check back!
Im moving on to another stage of my life.
Good Day

2010-09-11T08:46:00.001+08:00

Tumbling, Rolling on~
http://sunchower.tumblr.com/

2010-08-06T19:16:00.000+08:00

1. Siwon (Super Junior)
2. Donghae (Super Junior)
3. Kyuhyun (Super Junior)
4. Kibum (Super Junior)
5. Kangin (Super Junior)
6. Leeteuk (Super Junior)
7. Eunhyuk (Super Junior)
8. Ryeowook (Super Junior)
9. Sungmin (Super Junior)
10. Han Geng (Super Junior)
11. Heechul (Super Junior)
12. Shindong (Super Junior)
13. Yesung (Super Junior)
14. Zhou Mi (Super Junior)
15. Henry Lau (Super Junior)

16. G-Dragon (BigBang)
17. TOP (BigBang)
18. Daesung (BigBang)
19. Taeyang (BigBang)
20. Seungri (BigBang)

21. Jaebeom (2PM)
22. Nichkhun (2PM)
23. Taecyeon(2PM)
24. Wooyoung (2PM)
25. Junsu (2PM)
26. Junho (2PM)
27. Chansung (2PM)

28. Max Changmin (TVXQ)
29. Xiah Junsu (TVXQ)
30. Micky Yoochun (TVXQ)
31. U-Know Yunho (TVXQ)
32. Hero Jaejoong (TVXQ)

33. Joon (MBLAQ)
34. Seungho (MBLAQ)
35. G.O (MBLAQ)
36. Mir (MBLAQ)
37. CheonDoong/Thunder (MBLAQ)

38. DongWoon (BEAST)
39. Yoseob (BEAST)
40. JunHyung (BEAST)
41. HyunSeung (BEAST)
42. DooJoon (BEAST)
43. GiKwang/AJ (BEAST)

44. Hongki (FTI)
45. Jonghun (FTI)
46. Minhwan (FTI)
47. Jaejin (FTI)
48. Seunghyun (FTI)

49. Lee Seunggi
50. Lee Minho
52. Kim Bum

53. Taemin (SHINee)
54.Jonghyun (SHINee)
55. Minho (SHINee)
56. Onew (SHINee)
57. Key (SHINee)

58. HyunJoong (SS501)
59. YoungSaeng (SS501)
60. JungMin (SS501)
61. KyuJong (SS501)
62. HyungJoon (SS501)

63. Song Joong Ki
64. Jang Geun Suk

65. LeeU (F.Cuz)
66. Jinon (F.Cuz)
67. Yejun (F.Cuz)
68. Kan (F.Cuz)

69. Wonbin (ex- FT Island)

70. ChangHyun (SHU-I)
71. MinHo (SHU-I)
72. Inseok (SHU-I)
73. HyunJoong (SHU-I)
74. Jinseok (SHU-I)

75. Ha MinWoo (ZE:A)
76. Hwang KwangHee (ZE:A)
77. Jung HeeChul (ZE:A)
78. Moon JunYoung (ZE:A)
79. Park HyungShik (ZE:A)
80. Im SiWan (ZE:A)
81. Kim TaeHun (ZE:A)
82. Kim DongJun (ZE:A)
83. Kevin Kim (ZE:A)

84. Shin SooHyun (U-KISS)
85. Alexander (U-KISS)
86. Kim Kibum (U-KISS)
87. Eli (U-KISS)
88. Lee KiSub (U-KISS)
89. Kevin Woo (U-KISS)
90. Shin DongHo (U-KISS)

91. Bi Rain

92. Changmin (2AM)
93. Jinwoon (2AM)
94. Seulong (2AM)
95. Jokwon (2AM)

96. CL (2NE1)
97. Minzy (2NE1)
98. Bom (2NE1)
99. Dara (2NE1)

100. Taeyeon (SNSD)
101. Sooyoung (SNSD)
102. Seohyun (SNSD)
103. Tiffany (SNSD)
104. Hyoyeon (SNSD)
105. Jessica (SNSD)
106. Sunny (SNSD)
107. Yuri (SNSD)
108. Yoona (SNSD)

109. Yonghwa (CN Blue)
110. Jungshin (CN Blue)
111. Jonghyun (CN Blue)
112. Minhyuk (CN Blue)

113. Kim Ah-Joong

114. Park Gahee (After School)
115. UEE (After School)
116. Bekha (After School)
117. Kim Jung-ah (After School)
118. Lee Jooyeon (After School)
119. Yoo Soyoung (ex-After School)
120. Raina (After School)
121. Nana (After School)
122. Lizzy (After School)

123. Park Gyuri (KARA)
124. Han Seungyeon (KARA)
125. Nicole (KARA)
126. Goo Hara (KARA)
127. Kang Jiyoung (KARA)

128. So Hee (Wondergirls)
129. Sun Ye (Wondergirls)
130. Sun Mi (ex-Wondergirls)
131. Ye Eun (Wondergirls)
132. YooBin (Wondergirls)

133. Eunjung (T-ara)
134. Hyomin (T-ara)
135. Ji-Yeon (T-ara)
136. Soyeon (T-ara)
137. Boram (T-ara)
138. Q-ri (T-ara)

139. Victoria (f(x))
140. Amber (f(x))
141. Luna (f(x))
142. Sulli (f(x))
143. Kystal (f(x))

144. Mika(D-NA)
145. Hyumin(D-NA)
146. Karam(D-NA)
147. Injoon(D-NA)
148. Jay(D-NA)

149.Jihyun(4Minute)
150.Hyunah(4Minute)
151.Gayoon(4Minute)
152.Jiyoon(4Minute)
153.Sohyun(4Minute)

154. Woohyun (Infinite)
155. Myungsoo / L (Infinite)
156. Dongwoo (Infinite)
157. Sungyeol (Infinite)
158. Hoya (Infinite)
159. Sungjung (Infinite)
160. Sunggyu (Infinite)

161. Lee Hyori

162. JeA (Brown Eyed Girls)
163. Narsha (Brown Eyed Girls)
164. Miryo (Brown Eyed Girls)
165. Ga In (Brown Eyed Girls)

166. Park Jungah (Jewelry)
167. Seo In Young (Jewelry)
168. Kim Eun Jung (Jewelry)
169. Ha Joo Yeon (Jewelry)

2010-08-03T16:45:00.002+08:00

I dont want to end my story, not because i dont have time.
I feel is a waste to end it here. You end it ^^

2010-08-03T16:43:00.003+08:00

I'll Do It All Again~

I Will.

EDD！

2010-08-02T17:03:00.000+08:00

有恋爱的感觉~

2010-08-01T17:30:00.000+08:00

Confession.
I remembered what went through my head on congregation night.
What made me stand up and say " Yes, I want to serve the Lord and learn more ".
The endless sins that is in my mind and head.
The promise has ever since been with me, but fading quickly after a few months in reality.
It has been a month since i went church. Im really worried about my walk with Him.
A person like me, wouldnt have a chance to go to Heaven and meet Him.
Even so, I still want to pray to Him, serve Him.
keeping that tiny bit of hope that one day, i will be able to fall on my knees in front of Him to ask for forgiveness.
Yesterday night, He spoke to me.
He spoke to me after I sinned.
He helped me realize what Love is , all over again.
This is one prayer im going to keep it with me every night, one i''ll be holding very close to my heart.
The verse that i have it in my wallet,

1 Corinthians 10:13 No temptation has overtaken you except such as is common to man; but God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able, but with the temptation will also make the way of escape, that you may be able to bear it.

It is this verse that brought me out of my temptation to sin.
Yesterday night, i didnt manage to keep hold of myself and blurted out something awful.
I hope this verse helps you to overcome some temptations in life, and if you lost your way,
know that He will be always there like a guiding star in the sky, guiding you all the way back to Him.
A renewed Faith today, I really want to start it all over again, and this time, I really really mean my words.
I know all my friends will help me through this, right?

2010-08-01T15:30:00.001+08:00

DJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJ.
Being a rapper isnt that bad after all~

2010-07-28T21:51:00.000+08:00

觉得今天的我，疯了~
今天一整天都不顺利，超失望的。。
j就别说BEAST的事了，那是已经被预料到。
算了，我不说了，越说越伤心。。
主啊。。
-
What have I become..
I actually need so many to tell me to have faith.
Bye,

2010-07-25T17:40:00.000+08:00

I deleted the link off my phone.
Im happy cause I only have one goal now..
TO GET THE BAG.
AHHAS! Kiddin,
O levels of course~
And for NP to call me..
-
Always having this kind of thoughts in my mind,
Whether He still loves me, or has He gave up on me.

Mind Games

2010-07-25T00:27:00.000+08:00

KEKEKE. IM TIRED. I want to worship with the right heart.
North Korea launching missiles to South Korea ( or is it USA ? ) tomorrow.
Im worried that it will be the outbreak to another war, Singapore will go down.
With that thought in mind, I know is useless.
I can do nothing to save my country if a war starts.
The most I can do is to keep Singapore and countries involved, in prayer.
I know I'vent been very Faithful towards Him, and I know I didnt do everything with my best effort.
난몰라..

-
How sometimes even your best friend feels awkward talking to you.
Then it gets you thinking : Are we really best friends?
Then you think back @ what you normally talk about.
You cant remember anything except gossip.
Then you think : I can gossip with everyone, what makes him/her my best friend?
Best friends are suppose to have something in common right?
How sad to know that the only common thing we have is to gossip.
Whatmore, is a sin.

2010-07-18T14:34:00.000+08:00

JoJinHwi
A trainee in CUBE. Please anticipate, see him in I my me mine perf too ^^

One tweeting bird.

2010-07-15T21:05:00.000+08:00

Why is Chopper so cute? Ke^^

Windmills with rubber.
-
What a long week. Crappy stuff happened.
Ongoing tests. Disappointing results.
The Virtual life was good, the Reality isnt.
-
Ken's creepy smile.
All my hair were standing at its end.
What shocked me even more, Francine.
She couldnt look up and face me. Her long bangs covered her pretty features.
"Francine! " I spat. " What in the world ! "
Lora then whispered " I knew she was the one who wore the dress. "
My blood freezed, not the words but at the coldness of the blade. On my neck.
" Your dear brother killed my girlfriend. He died so to pay off the debt. "
" Sherlyn was your girlfriend?! " I cried, literally . Ken lost his smile. His eyes glaring at me, then he drew back the knife. The accident took place a few years back. Jake was on his way home from a whole night's clubbing. He was wasted, still he drove. He didnt even see Sherlyn coming out and before he knew it, she was down.
" If thats the case, my brother is dead. Why are you holding the two of us? " I stared at Lora and shot her a pitiful look. I dragged her into all these. Feeling guilty about how i took her as a suspect, how can I just remember what she done bad and forgot about the good? Suspicion kills everything. Still, from her eyes I saw forgiveness. She knows it all. What a smart friend I have.
" Well, apparently, someone else here, wants you dead . " His smile resurfaced.
Francine finally looked up and our eyes meet. My mind wondered off " I have a smart friend and one who likes to play pretend. "
-
I never fail to be amazed at the fact that God answers prayers.
From the bold words, I think I know what I should do.
Instead of giving up and facing you like this everyday, I should try harder.
Im tired to do this everyday. As if my brain cells wasnt all wipeout by the tests.
I took my first step, not daring to take another step closer.
We'll see.

I miss Home

2010-07-11T10:58:00.000+08:00

Is gone. My pretty house is gone.
The one that contains all my memory.
My memories are being sold off, can you believe it?

Yes, thats where i lived.

2010-07-09T20:08:00.000+08:00

I WANT TO HAVE BEAST ALL TO MYSELF.
TRAPPED IN THEIR WORLD.
HATE YOU ALL YOU ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL!
-
I was just ranting, HEHE! Dont take it personal, i was just speaking on behalf on all Fangirls out there.
WHO THEY HELL WOULDNT WANT THEM ~ ^^

2010-07-04T00:07:00.000+08:00

For those who havent read it.

2010-07-02T22:29:00.002+08:00

"Jo, im so sorry.." Lora whispered.
Her eyes filled with tears.
"Do you want to talk to me? "

"No, not now, i cant." Having said that, Jo ran off.
-
Lora knows it all.
She knows whats the secret of the dead body.
She will never tell, " over my dead body " she said under her breath.
-
Jo stared at the ceiling,
Not knowing who to turn to for help, she sank deeper into the bed.
She needs to find and who, and why.
-
" Jo, are you going out of campus tonight? i heard they are going to the new place beside Jerry's. " Lora asked.
" You guys go ahead, i need a rest. " jo lied through her teeth.
She was planning to stay on to investigate her brother's death and everyone is on her suspect list, even Lora. she knew she couldnt trust anyone at this point of time. She stared into Lora's pleading eyes to search for a hint of murderous intent. Lora covered it so well she couldnt see anything.
" Fine, i'll go! What's with that eyes Lo! At least, let me go get changed! "
She turned into her closet, searching for her pale green dress.
She havent wear it before. it was a gift from her brother Dake.
"Lo, have you seen my dress? the one from Dake?"
" Uhh, yeah, i think i did. Its at the basket, ready to be sent for cleaning. "
Lora almost wished she havent said that. She wasnt suppose to know anything.
" Thats weird. i have never wore that dress before. I'll go take a look."
Before Lora can stop her, she was halfway down the corridor. Jo took up the dress and what she saw shocked her.
Bloodstains.
-
( Jo= Me )
My legs couldnt hold my weight any longer and i fell to the floor.
staring at that dress, I kept thinking who is the one.
Footsteps.
The next thing i knew, it all became black.
An unfamiliar voice.
" Im the one that killed him. Get me. " It definitely belonged to a guy.
Still, A guy wearing a dress doesnt make sense.
" Why did you kill him? " I felt the sweat beads running down my chin, to my collarbone, which is now stinging in pain.
I felt his hands at my neck, both hands.
Cuts. Many cuts on his palm.
" 'cuz he knew too much, just like you now. Goodbye Jomile.. "
My memories, Lora, Francine ( another best friend ), they all started to appear, flashing through my mind.
I was dead.
-
Francine was my schoolmate for as long as i know.
She's the president's only child.
As spoiled as she is, she is the only one i can talk to.
Just got to know Lora this year, but nowadays, i talk to her more than i talk to francine.
Maybe becauseshe spends too much time with her boyfriend, Will.
... Will...
Was it Will?
A few days after that murder attempt, i found myself lying in the hospital bed.
" Are you sure you are alright? I can get the best doctors here if you want me to. Is just a call away Jo. "
Francine shouted from across the bed.
" I aint deaf, Francine. I can hear you perfectly fine. "
I turned and saw Lora. Her face was pearly white, like she just saw a ghost.
That was when i started to thought about the past.
" Lora, you alright there? "
She jumped out of her chair, I got a shock.
" YES! IM FINE ! sorry Jo, was just thinking who could that be. I meant the person who attempt to.. you know.."
" Dont worry Lora, i've already figured it out "
Then i saw Will shivered a bit and i couldnt stop the smirk from escaping my mouth.
-
First, a blood stained dress.
Second, an unfamiliar voice.
If it was Will, i would have recognise his voice.
But, what about the incident at the hospital.
Why did he shiver.
I was out of the hospital a week ago.
Life has been pretty good but still, the thought of my friend being a murderer scares me.
I know i had to get things right, myself.
Went to my wardrobe , pulled on a sweater and went off to find Will.
He was in the cafeteria, with his other classmates.
I know some of them from last year Literature class.
"Hey Will, Hey Ken. " I smiled.
It was Ken blush that made me shivered.
" Will, can you come out for a bit? I've something to ask . "
He had a stern expression and i knew that something was wrong.
We sat at the bench right in front of the chemistry lab. It was the first time I saw him like this and i pretty much freaked out.
Before I can ask, he stared at me. " I broke up with Francine. Want to know why? "
Suddenly, to him, it seems like his shoes became the most interesting item in the world.
" Because i fell in love with you " .
I gasped. All the air left my lungs. There were 2 person on my suspect list and now, there was only one left.
My blackberry beeped.
" C U @ lunch, Lora "
-
My mind is in a big mess.
I walked into the cafeteria with Will. I felt everyone's eyes was on me, including Will's.
" Jo, here! " Lora waving her hands frantically.
My heart sank deeper when i saw Francine.
I had no feelings for Will but at the same time, i dont know if i should bring up the whole confession drama.
" Francine, you alright? " I pulled out the chair in front of her and I saw Will went to his table.
Then I saw Ken's freakish smile again.
Francine looked like she didnt sleep forever,
no makeup, red eyes. Could tell Girl was crying the whole night, but She looks stronger now.
" I didnt know why he suggested that, but is gonna be his loss right.. "
I could see her confidence slowly fading away.
Lora then signaled me to move over to the queue.
" Francine, is there anything i can get for you? " I wanted to kill myself ten times after i asked.
No girl in the right mind will want to eat after being ditched by a guy.
What more a President's daughter.
But she actually asked for a salad and i secretly in my heart applaud here for that.
I've been through a few breakup and i know it feels like, hell.
" Jo! JO! did you catch what i said just now? " Lora half screaming, half whispering.
" Sorry! i was thinking about the Lit project that's gonna be due. Anyway, what did you say ? "
" I was saying about the dress. Remembered, the one your brother gave? "
I clearly have forgotten about that. Why did she have to remind me? Oh wait, she said she have something to say.
Staring in my eyes, " I think i know why that dress was stained. "
I felt all of the blood rushed out my body.
It was her, my closest friend. Lora.
-
I didnt hear her say anymore and ran back to my room.
I dropped to the floor.
No one was there when i found the dress, I was all alone.
She was the one who attempt the murder.
-
I couldnt think at all. Tears flowing endlessly.
Someone. Footsteps, yet again.
The door knob twitched open.
Relieved. It was Francine. I ran into her arms, i told her everything, including the confession earlier on in the day.
I looked up at her, for some comfort.
Her eyes, cold and so far away.
" Is all over Jo. " That was the last sentence i heard.
That was before i was knocked out.
Confusion.
"Jo, is that you? " I could hear Lora's tired and strained voice behind me.
" Why are you here? " I was blindfolded.
" I dont know. I need to tell you who wore that dress, now. "
I could hear the door unlock.
My blindfold dropped onto the floor.
That creepy smile again.
-
( next 080710, to whoever is out there. )

2010-06-30T18:30:00.000+08:00

I couldnt think at all. Tears flowing endlessly.
Someone. Footsteps, yet again.
The door knob twitched open.
Relieved. It was Francine. I ran into her arms, i told her everything, including the confession earlier on in the day.
I looked up at her, for some comfort.
Her eyes, cold and so far away.
" Is all over Jo. " That was the last sentence i heard.
That was before i was knocked out.
Confusion.
"Jo, is that you? " I could hear Lora's tired and strained voice behind me.
" Why are you here? " I was blindfolded.
" I dont know. I need to tell you who wore that dress, now. "
I could hear the door unlock.
My blindfold dropped onto the floor.
That creepy smile again.

2010-06-30T18:09:00.000+08:00

To O levels,
You are just Ordinary. Im Special cause Beast told me so.
Im being a Bad Girl by coming online everyday, is going to make my results go down.
I dont know why, you are Easy, Yet, i have to study. A Mystery, isnt it?
I wish i can Say No to my teachers when they make me do work because of you.
Still, i know i must study hard. I dont want to get a Shock when the results come.

2010-06-21T08:47:00.000+08:00

I didnt hear her say anymore and ran back to my room.
I dropped to the floor.
No one was there when i found the dress, I was all alone.
She was the one who attempt the murder.

2010-06-21T00:26:00.000+08:00

My mind is in a big mess.
I walked into the cafeteria with Will. I felt everyone's eyes was on me, including Will's.
" Jo, here! " Lora waving her hands frantically.
My heart sank deeper when i saw Francine.
I had no feelings for Will but at the same time, i dont know if i should bring up the whole confession drama.
" Francine, you alright? " I pulled out the chair in front of her and I saw Will went to his table.
Then I saw Ken's freakish smile again.
Francine looked like she didnt sleep forever,
no makeup, red eyes. Could tell Girl was crying the whole night, but She looks stronger now.
" I didnt know why he suggested that, but is gonna be his loss right.. "
I could see her confidence slowly fading away.
Lora then signaled me to move over to the queue.
" Francine, is there anything i can get for you? " I wanted to kill myself ten times after i asked.
No girl in the right mind will want to eat after being ditched by a guy.
What more a President's daughter.
But she actually asked for a salad and i secretly in my heart applaud here for that.
I've been through a few breakup and i know it feels like, hell.
" Jo! JO! did you catch what i said just now? " Lora half screaming, half whispering.
" Sorry! i was thinking about the Lit project that's gonna be due. Anyway, what did you say ? "
" I was saying about the dress. Remembered, the one your brother gave? "
I clearly have forgotten about that. Why did she have to remind me? Oh wait, she said she have something to say.
Staring in my eyes, " I think i know why that dress was stained. "
I felt all of the blood rushed out my body.
It was her, my closest friend. Lora.
-

My cousin talking to, well, someoneeeeeee~ ^^ MY ROOM IS IN A BIG MESS.
Did i mention i finish my chemistry papers? IM HAPPY but, MOST of it, i think i will have to ask on tuesday.

2010-06-19T10:10:00.001+08:00

First off, i didnt complete my chemistry yesterday and im feeling very guilty.
Second, it means that i have to complete both physics and chem today.
Third, the netbook wouldnt leave me alone! It just looks so lonely on the floor by itself! How sad.
Fourth, I need to pass the lonely netbook to someone else so i can concentrate.
Fifth, i need to off my phone so i wouldnt go online with my phone.
Sixth, half an hour more and im going off.

Excessive.

2010-06-16T21:54:00.002+08:00

First, a blood stained dress.
Second, an unfamiliar voice.
If it was Will, i would have recognise his voice.
But, what about the incident at the hospital.
Why did he shiver.
I was out of the hospital a week ago.
Life has been pretty good but still, the thought of my friend being a murderer scares me.
I know i had to get things right, myself.
Went to my wardrobe , pulled on a sweater and went off to find Will.
He was in the cafeteria, with his other classmates.
I know some of them from last year Literature class.
"Hey Will, Hey Ken. " I smiled.
It was Ken blush that made me shivered.
" Will, can you come out for a bit? I've something to ask . "
He had a stern expression and i knew that something was wrong.
We sat at the bench right in front of the chemistry lab. It was the first time I saw him like this and i pretty much freaked out.
Before I can ask, he stared at me. " I broke up with Francine. Want to know why? "
Suddenly, to him, it seems like his shoes became the most interesting item in the world.
" Because i fell in love with you " .
I gasped. All the air left my lungs. There were 2 person on my suspect list and now, there was only one left.
My blackberry beeped.
" C U @ lunch, Lora "
-
Chairing session, Homework, Beast. My life, has just gotten exciting .

Just let me ramble.. and im no stalker alright.

2010-06-13T15:08:00.000+08:00

I know i should be happy when someone get to know the Lord.
definitely a good news, No Doubt.
why aint i rejoicing now?
Why do i feel like crying even more now?
This is a lie. A lie.
For so long, i felt nothing.
Now, its coming back at me with one punch in my head.
i had enough of this.
Saving up ALOT of money and im going to migrate to where ever place there is on earth.
Just, not here.
That wall that i build up bit by bit, to protect myself, crashed.

2010-06-12T22:18:00.001+08:00

First, Korea Won~
Park Jisung DAEBAK!
JINJJA DAEBAK!
-
Finished chem paper 2~ ^^
English tmr ^^
-
Some random thoughts:
( Love deprived i guess )
1. Its awesome to know that there will be a heartbrokened person out there, just by seeing your frown.
2. Maybe if i write good lyrics, i can go to korea.
3. If i learn drums, i can be in a good band.
4. If i study harder, and i wouldnt regret after taking all the O's.
ALRIGHT, going to study now. KEKE
-
[ The girl/boy @ the back ]
4. They are more creative than you think they are, so stop and listen sometimes ^^
5. Think fast but dare not react.
6. They'll shine one day ^^ ( ANYHOW ONE )

2010-06-12T15:01:00.000+08:00

Francine was my schoolmate for as long as i know.
She's the president's only child.
As spoiled as she is, she is the only one i can talk to.
Just got to know Lara this year, but nowadays, i talk to her more than i talk to francine.
Maybe becauseshe spends too much time with her boyfriend, Will.
... Will...
Was it Will?
A few days after that murder attempt, i found myself lying in the hospital bed.
" Are you sure you are alright? I can get the best doctors here if you want me to. Is just a call away Jo. "
Francine shouted from across the bed.
" I aint deaf, Francine. I can hear you perfectly fine. "
I turned and saw Lara. Her face was pearly white, like she just saw a ghost.
That was when i started to thought about the past.
" Lara, you alright there? "
She jumped out of her chair, I got a shock.
" YES! IM FINE ! sorry Jo, was just thinking who could that be. I meant the person who attempt to.. you know.."
" Dont worry Lara, i've already figured it out "
Then i saw Will shivered a bit and i couldnt stop the smirk from escaping my mouth.

2010-06-09T16:39:00.001+08:00

It doesnt feel good when you know that NO ONE is reading what you wrote.
Life is a bit messed up, and i told myself i will get it back to the right track Yesterday.
So far, it has been good.
Gonna wash up now and go to Bethany~

The girl @ the back

2010-06-06T08:41:00.000+08:00

( Jo= Me )
My legs couldnt hold my weight any longer and i fell to the floor.
staring at that dress, I kept thinking who is the one.
Footsteps.
The next thing i knew, it all became black.
An unfamiliar voice.
" Im the one that killed him. Get me. " It definitely belonged to a guy.
Still, A guy wearing a dress doesnt make sense.
" Why did you kill him? " I felt the sweat beads running down my chin, to my collarbone, which is now stinging in pain.
I felt his hands at my neck, both hands.
Cuts. Many cuts on his palm.
" 'cuz he knew too much, just like you now. Goodbye Jomile.. "
My memories, Lora, Thomas ( BF ), Francine ( another best friend ), they all started to appear, flashing through my mind.
I was dead.
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[ The girl/boy @ the back ]
1. They are observant cause they get to see everyone and what they do, small little actions, they way they speak.
2. Definitely not emotional, just that they walk too slow.
3. Makes people feel better when they are down, cuz people from the front will move to the back when they are sad. ( it happens all the time )
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Happy Birthday Dongwoon oppa, my Arab Wangja!
I'll see you soon and i will definitely get you a gift if i can! ;x
With all the problems im having now, im not so sure about that.
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Forgive me Father.
Im really sorry.

2010-05-30T00:13:00.000+08:00

Im mad tired and you wouldnt see me online tmr and tmr tmr.
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The fact that people are always changing, does not scare me.
It is what they become, scares me.

2010-05-29T21:20:00.002+08:00

Let me, go through my mind again.
...
i dont find you inside anymore.
Its over.

2010-05-29T21:16:00.001+08:00

Afraid of slides. I cant remember who was it.
Ohwell.
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" Jo, are you going out of campus tonight? i heard they are going to the new place beside Jerry's. " Lora asked.
" You guys go ahead, i need a rest. " jo lied through her teeth.
She was planning to stay on to investigate her brother's death and everyone is on her suspect list, even Lora. she knew she couldnt trust anyone at this point of time. She stared into Lora's pleading eyes to search for a hint of murderous intent. Lora covered it so well she couldnt see anything.
" Fine, i'll go! What's with that eyes Lo! At least, let me go get changed! "
She turned into her closet, searching for her pale green dress.
She havent wear it before. it was a gift from her brother Dake.
"Lo, have you seen my dress? the one from Dake?"
" Uhh, yeah, i think i did. Its at the basket, ready to be sent for cleaning. "
Lora almost wished she havent said that. She wasnt suppose to know anything.
" Thats weird. i have never wore that dress before. I'll go take a look."
Before Lora can stop her, she was halfway down the corridor. Jo took up the dress and what she saw shocked her.
Bloodstains.

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Chinese in two days~ FREAKING OUT.
I definitely havent done my best yet.

BABY BABY~

2010-05-26T18:36:00.000+08:00

Lora knows it all.
She knows whats the secret of the dead body.
She will never tell, " over my dead body " she said under her breath.
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Jo stared at the ceiling,
Not knowing who to turn to for help, she sank deeper into the bed.
She needs to find and who, and why.
--
i need more sleep time please!
-He really looks like YoonDuJun. No one wants to agree with me.
A girl can fantasize right! ^^
-O'level, im going to get you on the first try for chinese.
You better watch your back ^^

2010-05-15T16:32:00.000+08:00

There.
He laid in his own pool of blood.

"Jo, im so sorry.." Lora whispered.
Her eyes filled with tears.
"Do you want to talk to me? "

"No, not now, i cant." Having said that, Jo ran off.
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Its amazinc how some are so tough and wouldnt dare to show how they really feel.
Lets just take it slow.
,CT.

2010-05-08T16:20:00.000+08:00

Singapore aims to promote technology intensive, high value added manufacturing activities in electronics...
Ohwell, got to keep it fresh in my mind for the next few more months.

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Consider being an adult after OLevels.
I need some makeover, after everything.
I hope someone is reading all this.
Maybe a super hairstylist or an awesome makeup artist.

2010-05-01T10:12:00.000+08:00

I want to learn ballet.
I want to learn baking.
I want to write books.

2010-04-30T16:47:00.001+08:00

当你靠近一个人,
那种心跳加速, 害羞的感觉, 你还有吗?
我有。

Work really really REALLY hard.

2010-04-16T23:25:00.000+08:00

My hair is wayyyyyyyyyyyyy too short. Nah, just kidding, i like the length now.
Suitable for this HOT weather.
Push yourself to the limit CORINTOO.
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I alwaysss alwayssss thought my conscience was my Holy Spirit.
Nah, IM STUPID.
IS NOT.
Is that special " thing " inside me.

2010-04-09T23:30:00.000+08:00

Naneun ottoke.
~Naneun ottoke.
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I will be missing out the greatest event of the year.
I keep thinking about useless things today. ( lets just wait till poly.. )
Rain is HOT.
Im getting sleepy.
I need to post up pictures.
This irritating voice in my head keeps saying, " Go back. "
A few more months, I will be out working somewhere.
The You-know-who, oh please, you know you are leading your life with 2 people in your small world. You are just wasting everything you have been using and your are producing heat by breathing. ( i will be out of breath if i say this out loud ) . Ohcrap, i promise this is the last time i will ______ about you here. SOOOOOOO, GO BACK TO WHERE YOU CAME FROM, BACK INTO THE WORLD YOU ARE SUPPOSE TO LIVE IN, GET A LIFE.
I just sin.
Today is tiring.
Today was tiring.
OHWELLLLL.

MY first meaningful Good Friday.

2010-04-03T00:17:00.000+08:00

Today is the best friday ever.
Good Friday.
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Laid my sins infront of me.
Took a walk in my past.
Stop, think, Change it.
I really am amazed how He is willing to die for us in Calvary when I cant even take an hour or two out to find out more about Him.
How wretched im.
How can He give me so much when im such a sinner.
Im totally embarassed.
Father, will you forgive me once again?
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Once i start studying, nothing stops me.
First, i have to start studying first.

Nothing comes out. Nothing comes out..

2010-03-29T19:29:00.000+08:00

How can anyone live without regrets?
Is it possible?
There must be some kind of mistake at some point i guess.
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Gasping for air, This is last few hundred meters i have to run.
Studying for 10 years, just for this exam. Make sense.

Belated Earth Day.

2010-03-28T23:13:00.000+08:00

Today at church feels abit different.
The sun was shining brightly and we were all under the shade.
Normally, it'll be dark somehow. Feels different altogether.
Pastor's Birthday, super touching.
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Teacher Carol said, Pastor said he wouldnt be always there for us as someday, he might be leaving us to be with God.
I suddenly feel the urgency to learn even more.
The feeling of someone leaving you, is just way too horrible.
Not suppose to think it this way, but, i really want everything to just stay the way it is, physically.
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Today, joanna went church "> Happy. We almost missed the bus "p
I kept praying and praying that the bus will just come later, jom.
Everytime a bus came to the busstop, i told myself, : " ohdear, it must be 58 "
Despite praying again and again, i couldnt bring myself to believe that this bus, wasnt 58.
However, He proved me wrong, 3 times.
At the 4th time, it really came.
I actually panicked. I really blanked out. As the bus approach, I saw joanna running.
At that point of time, I was super disappointed in myself for not believing.
However, it somehow brought me another step closer to God.
An addition to my Faith.
" He wouldnt lead you to it, if He cant bring you through it. "

2010-03-24T16:44:00.000+08:00

Deng Deng~
oneul, chuahaeyo!
nan, mollaji.
kirigo, okamine.
Blabbering.
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Its really, amazing to know that something like that will happen.
He hears and answers prayers.
Although i must admit i only prayed twice about it, but, IT REALLY HAPPENED.
Praise the Lord.